Imagine this: your entire reality has beenwarped and distorted.
Your sense of self has been eroded, diminished.
You wereidealized, devalued,then shoved off the pedestal.
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Maybe you were relentlessly stalked, harassed and bullied to stay with your abuser.
This is what narcissistic abuse looks like.
You experience dissociation as a survival mechanism.
Dissociation can lead to emotional numbing in the face of horrific circumstances.
This inner integration is best done with the help of a trauma-informed therapist.
You walk on eggshells.
You may have once been full of life, goal-driven and dream-oriented.
Now you feel as if you are living just to fulfill the needs and agendas of another person.
Once, the narcissists entire life seemed to revolve around you; now your entire life revolves aroundthem.
You are struggling with health issues and somatic symptoms that represent your psychological turmoil.
You develop a pervasive sense of mistrust.
Your usual caution becomes hypervigilance.
You experience suicidal ideation or self-harming tendencies.
Along with depression and anxiety may come an increased sense of hopelessness.
Your circumstances feel unbearable, as if you cannot escape, even if you wanted to.
You may even engage in self-harm as a way to cope.
This is the way abusers essentially commit murder without a trace.
Many abusers isolate their victims, but victims alsoisolate themselvesbecause they feel ashamed about the abuse theyre experiencing.
You find yourself comparing yourself to others, often to the extent of blaming yourself for the abuse.
This can send them down the trapdoor of wondering, why me?
and stuck in an abyss of self-blame.
You self-sabotage and self-destruct.
Malignant narcissists program and condition their victims to self-destruct sometimes even to the point of driving them to suicide.
They may sabotage their goals, dreams and academic pursuits.
You fear doing what you love and achieving success.
Since many pathological predators areenvious of their victims, they punish them for succeeding.
This conditioning gets their victims to fear success lest they be met with reprisal and reprimand.
You protect your abuser and even gaslight yourself.
Rationalizing, minimizing and denyingthe abuse are often survival mechanisms for victims in an abusive relationship.
Ive been narcissistically abused.
There are millions of survivors all over the world who have experienced what you have.
This form of psychological torment is not exclusive to any gender, culture, social class or religion.
Reach out for help if you are experiencing any of these symptoms, especially suicidal ideation.
Consult a trauma-informed counselor who understands and can help guide you through the symptoms of trauma.
Makea safety planif you have concerns about your abuser getting violent.
