If you’re helping someone else you arent thinking about your own problems.
People do that for three reasons.
Either they crazy, or stupid, or tryin to forget.
Jenny Woods
And with you, I knew you was tryin to forget.
I just didnt know what.
-Nicholas Sparks
1.
You stay super busy.
You take on everyones problems before your own.
If youre helping someone else you arent thinking about your own problems.
You never say no when someone asks you to do something.
Simply because you should probably be doing something or youll go crazy.
You turn to music.
You find those songs you suddenly relate to, that just explain every horrible thing you are feeling.
In reality, you cant even find those words yourself or the courage to say them out loud.
There are certain people you avoid eye contact with.
Those people who really know you, the ones who can see through your bluff you dont look at.
You dont want them to know youre hurting.
You never really are honest when people ask how youre doing.
Even though its so far from it.
Its easy to lie.
You make an effort to be too positive.
But you get inside your head over thinking things.
So you go out just to distract yourself to numb the pain.
Physically you might be out throwing back drinks and smiling but emotionally you are so checked out.
But what you realize is even in a crowded room you feel alone.
And you break down in private.
No one will ever see you cry.
But you cry a lot more than youd ever admit.
Then you try and make light of the situation laughing it off.
Because if youre making people laugh or making a joke out of this maybe itll decrease the blow.
And everyone tells you, youll get over it in due time.
You know itll fade.
You know youll wake up and not think of them one day.
