You feel like you have no right to feel what youre feeling because you werent even together that long.
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Updated 8 years ago,September 6, 2017
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You got your hopes up.
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You couldnt help but hope theyd stick around and stay in your life for a long time.
Inevitable devastation set in when your hopes were smashed.
You dreamt of a life with this person.
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They were so dreamy that you couldnt help thinking about what your relationship would look like in the future.
It doesnt matter how short the time was that you spent together.
You were really starting to like them.
You caught some serious feelings while you were together.
You made space in your life for them.
Youre a busy person.
They were someone you regularly talked to and hung out with.
You knew that at least three days of your week would be spent with your new lover.
Sometimes you even spent more time together.
They became a regular part of your life that you looked forward to each day.
Its only natural that you feel sad now that theyre gone.
You know you cant call/text anymore even when you want to.
After all, you got used to talking to them when it happened.
It feels like something big is missing when you want to call/text them.
Unfriending and unfollowing them is sad but necessary.
You dont need to be stalking their pages.
Instead, you bite the inevitable bullet byunfollowing and unfriendingthem.
It pulls at your heart, but you know it needs to be done.
To call them an ex or not?
This bothers you more than youd like.
I mean, they kindve are, but they also kindve arent.
Does it really matter?
Probably not, but it irks you nonetheless.
You feel like you shouldnt be as upset as you are.
Oh, the shoulds and shouldnts.
You beat yourself up with them rather than just letting your process unfold.
I mean, the whole almost thing confuses you.
You feel like you have no right to feel what youre feeling because you werent even together that long.
Crying over them happens anyway.
Despite all that you tell yourself about what you should and shouldnt feel, tears pour out.
You cry while with your friends.
The creeping in of sadness happens when you least expect it.
You realize that the best thing to do is to just let it happen.
The tears are here to stay for a while.
Youre still not quite sure why it ended but you accept that its over.
Maybe the other person ended it, or perhaps it was a mutual thing.
The ending was a bit vague, but you have no choice other than to accept that its ended.
Doubt creeps in about your capacity to have a relationship.
You ask yourself questions:Am Ibroken?
Will you ever find love?
This question plagues you.
As youre trying to accept that this almost lover is gone, youre thinking about your future.
You thought this person was the one, so what if you never find love?
You know youre probably thinking totally irrationally, but the questions roll around in your head anyway.
You slowly move on, but theres a twinge of pain for a while.
