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Updated 8 years ago,October 3, 2017
1.
My buddy came over to my place after work and we unloaded the gun.
About5percent
2.
Ben Blennerhassett
PandeanPanic
3.
Later got a text from my best friend to play video games.
At around 11 at night.
Ben Blennerhassett
Wasnt able to play but still was happy.
DiamondCreeper23
4.
One of the managers at work wished me a good night.
That little gesture was enough to change my mind.
Godofwarv13
5.
It was too much effort, honestly.
Plus the fear that Ill fail and end up with some kind of permanent damage.
BeloKure
6.
I couldnt imagine where my dogs would go.
I have three and I couldnt imagine where they would go.
I didnt want them to be split up or sent to a shelter.
amahler03
7.
My cat sat on my lap and stared directly in my face.
Its weird but my cat stopped me once.
I had been put on a high dose of Xanax daily and it fucked with me.
She proceeded to sit on my lap and stare directly into my face until my roommate came home.
Now she just stares judgmentally at me 24/7.
SnakesCatsAndDogs
8.
I had a nice dream.
), and decided to sleep on it and loop back and try the next day.
When I woke up and started thinking about it, I felt like I could probably keep going.
Eshlau
9.
I had one online friend who had been the only one who cared and tried to help.
I was 16 in a bad home.
I had it all planned outtoo many sleeping pills.
One night I decided it was the night.
I was going to die that night.
I remember staring at the bottle for a while.
Thinking of what Id leave behind.
I felt no one would care if I was gone.
I put my hand on the cap.
All but one person.
I took the prescribed amount.
I had one online friend who had been the only one who cared and tried to help.
I couldnt hurt him like that.
If I just disappeared, hed know why.
10 years later, were still friends.
And Im still here.
EirieMorebi
10.
My grandma told me she was very proud of me.
Then one day when I was 16, he got sick of me and kicked me out.
ventscalmes
11.
Fear and laziness worked in my favor.
I can always kill myself tomorrow is a phrase that has saved my life more than once.
TristeroDiesIrae
12.
One calm and peaceful moment saved me.
I had tried to kill myself twice in an 11-year period.
I got to that point again.
I was determined to get it right this time and finally end it.
I had just started another new anti-depressant and was waiting for the time to kill myself.
The sky was tinted red due to the impending rain.
I also had a song playing on my phone that was perfect for the vibe going on.
It was just so calm and peaceful.
As I was sitting there, I realized that I wanted to capture this moment again.
I think it was the combination of the scenario and the anti-depressant.
saturday_night_wrist
13.
Some guy hit me in the face with a volleyball.
I decided to have one last weekend of having fun and hanging out with friends.
I petted a lot of dogs, laughed, sang, and made some OK memories.
Then some guy hit me in the face with a volleyball.
This guy was super-optimistic, funny, and just a delight to talk to.
A real walking ray of sunshine.
Its a really nice life.
WeedleBeest
14.
I started not to care enough to kill myself.
Its not a noble purpose, but it keeps me here.
the_river_nihil
15.
I didnt want to abandon my twin brother.
I have a twin brother and I understand how hed feel being without me.
Izboxi
16.
My friends funeral and her loved ones reactions to it.
I had a friend die.
She was younger than me, struck by a bolt of lightning.
Just about to enter university.
The funeral was just a high school reunion in the worst way.
All these crying 17 year olds and my old teachers completely shell-shocked.
Hearing the way her mother let out a shuddering cry when the casket closed.
In that moment, I think I saw what would happen to my family and friends if I died.
ru-ya
17.
I just pick something else to do.
I just pick something else.
Today, I went to the book store and actually bought a book.
iambluest
18.
I got in a near-fatal car crash.
I got in a car crash that by all accounts shouldve killed me.
Nothing gave me more of an appreciation for life than being so close to death without wanting to be.
Goser234
19.
I thought of all that I would hurt and leave behind.
Ive never really felt like I deserve anything.
You know that feeling of not belonging, the emptiness within yourself.
From the inside and when you fall so low you really sink down.
The loneliness really creeps up on you, it starts slowly the self-doubt settles in.
You lose the motivation to do anything, eat, exercise and socialize.
The pain worms its way into your head making you hate yourself.
So you give in.
For me I almost jumped of a bridge in the middle of winter.
I could feel the cold wind on my face.
I knew if I would jump and would go into shock and drown because of the cold.
But then I thought of all that I would hurt and leave behind.
What would my mom and dad say.
What about my dog and my friends.
So I stepped down of the bridge and walked home and got in bed.
After that I tried to turn my life around and still am.
someuselessguy
20.
My suicidal mom and I made a bet: the first one to die loses.
The ONLY thing that saved me was thinking of how my mom wouldnt be able to handle it.
Shes been dealing with wanting to commit suicide, too.
If I did, its push her over the edge.
My mom and I made a bet: the first one to die loses.
Kinda a joke, kinda serious.
Keirii
21.
I couldnt find a good place to do it.
It sounds absurd now, but I couldnt find a good place to do it.
I kept thinking about who would find me.
Didnt want it to be any family or friends.
I had one when I was younger too.
Ugh, just hit me.
I guess I had been acting weird and he picked up on it.
Just couldnt do it after those simple things.
TheSilenceIsUrAnswer
22.
Every time I tried I kept surviving by some fluke of fate.
Because every time I tried I kept surviving by some fluke of fate.
Take lots of pills?
(Parents various anti-depressants, anti-anxiety meds, etc.)
Pass out and wake up covered in vomit.
Rope snapped after I passed out
Hang myself with a steel cable from a weights machine?
The rubber stopper on the end broke and I slipped out…again after passing out.
make a run at drive head first into a tree?
I gave up after that.
AusPower_
23.
I realized that if I died I wouldnt get to hear any new songs.
Spoiler: this is stupid.
I realized that if I died I wouldnt get to hear any new songs.
Told you it was stupid.
I still like to hear new songs.
fairshoulders
24.
I was having an astonishingly bad mental health week.
at one point during her stay I decided that I needed to get outto escape, somehow.
So I went for a walk.
As I walked, I realized that I very well may kill myself at that moment.
I was headed toward an 8-story parking garagehigh enough to kill me, easy enough to push myself off.
So I bought a Snickers bar from a vending machine.
Heres the thingI dont like Snickers.
My friend, howevertheyre among her favorites.
I sent her a picture of the candy and captioned it, I got you a snickers.
She knew what it meant.
Sometimes, you just have to hang on to the smallest shit.
If I hadnt bought that Snickers, I genuinely dont know if I would be alive right now.
QuaeEstInfernum
25.
I was afraid of winding up a vegetable.
I am far too scared that I would fail and end up cabbaged.
CharlieSixPence
26.
I had left the safety on my gun.
I kept that bullet with me for a while as a reminder for myself.
Scrotymcboogerballs6
27.
I didnt want to crash my parents car.
I was in a horrible place a few years ago, generally unhappy, due to a toxic relationship.
Half a year ago, my ex cheated on me with my best friend, after a seven-year relationship.
What stopped me was the dumbest reason ever, I obviously wasnt in a clear state of mind though.
Now half a year later, Im doing great.
kilspeed111
28.
I was robbed at gunpoint and decided I wanted to live.
A lot of factors played into it, but there was one life-changing moment.
The store I was working at was robbed at gunpoint.
I spent five minutes being dragged around by my hair with a gun at my head.
Id always figured that if someone tried to kill me, I would embrace it.
DethmetalDylan
29.
I wanted to learn how to dance like Gene Kelly.
I was watchingSingin in the Rainafter cutting.
To be able to feel a connection with someone by just dancing.
I teach at one of the best studios in the country, and couldnt be happier.
LookSpaghettiArms
30.
Couldnt do it to my family.
Couldnt do it to my family.
How could I let them blame themselves for my lack of transparency?
They dont deserve that.
LahDeeDah7
31.
A girl made eye contact with me and smiled.
When I was in college I was having a really hard time with depression.
Its funny how even knowing I was going to kill myself, I still went through the motions.
As I walked past, she made eye contact with me and smiled.
It wasnt anything special, but it broke me.
I went back to my dorm and just cried.
Obviously I changed my plans for the night and Im still here today.
But I can still see her face clear as day.
Ive made it a point ever since then to pass on smiles wherever I go.
I can pass on my smiles today because she did that day years ago.
throwawayacct123
32.
I contemplated suicide a few years ago.
So one day I decided to kill myself by hanging.
Pretty straightforward, right?
Well the thing is I live in a bad neighborhood and there arent a lot of hanging-friendly trees.
They were only on main streets and I cant hang myself in front of the free clinic.
Id make them feel bad.
And someone would take my shit, cant have that.
Finally I found a spot.
Small walking bridge in a secluded section of a neighborhood park.
Now for thesuicide note.
I get to work, banging it out all through the night.
Not meant for this world I know youll miss me but its for the best.
Hit all the basic bullet points.
Now…make a noose.
But idk how to make a noose…so I look it up on WikiHow.
20 studious minutes later I have a functioning noose.
All of a sudden I feel something from deep inside my deadened, numb brain.
Im proud of myself??
Im proud if myself!!!
I give a shot to switch back to suicide mode but my mind is wandering now.
I made a noose, thats kind of dope.
What else can I make?
the ice cream was terrible.
