I wish I knew how to be myself without acting so tough all the time.
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Updated 6 years ago,March 15, 2019
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I was young and I thought I was supposed to be like them.
Sophia Sinclair
I thought I wanted the life they wanted.
I thought I wanted an easy lifesomeone to support me, someone to take care of me.
I thought I wanted a suitor but I needed a best friend.
I hate admitting this because I have genuinely always been the person who never cared what people thought.
Yet I would be lying if I said they didnt influence me.
Ironically now what I love most about myself is how different I am from them.
You never know you are wrong until you make those mistakes.
Unfortunately most of the time you do not know what you have until its gone.
You are right there are a million other guys, but they arent him.
There all kinds of love in this world but never the same love twice.
I wish I did not self-sabotage.
I wish I knew how to enjoy the moment without thinking about how it would soon be over.
I wish I just let you make me happy because that is all you tried to do.
I wish I realized what I had was real and that is rarer than anything anyone else can offer.
I wish I knew how to say what I felt before overthinking what I say.
I wish I knew how to not hold back or censor myself.
I wish I knew how to be nice to someone I like- without being scared of rejection.
I wish I gave more compliments.
I wish I said thank you especially to someone who deserved recognition.
I wish I showed my appreciation.
I wish I knew how to be myself without acting so tough all the time.
I wish I knew it is stronger to be vulnerable.
I wish I knew how ridiculous my ego was at the time.
