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Updated 4 years ago,November 9, 2020
Sick of the carousel of dating disappointment?
Want to jump off for good but scared of what will (or wont) happen?
I road tested the journey for you and lived to tell the tale.
Photo byKristina VonUnsplash
I started using dating apps about a year after my marriage ended.
Signing up to an app was my only option.
Far from a decent partner myself, I somehow expected to attract one.
Heres what happened when I eventually stopped for good.
MAJOR withdrawal symptoms from the flimsy yet potent high of sparking up a connection.
Time that at that point, I hadnt learned to fill with the things I loved doing.
Id literally been holding my breath until the next date in case he turned out to be the one.
I faced the facts.
It didnt last, but I can now see it could never have worked long-term.
I stopped whinging, and started living.
Yes, there was something missing, but it wasnt a man it was fulfilment and meaning.
Id had everything I needed at my disposal all along.
Thats when things started to change.
My epiphany made me proactive.
I learned more about what I love doing what sparks something in me and started doing more of it.
It hasnt happened overnight, but Ive worked hard to change my mindset and its paid off.
Things just feel different.
And if I do meet someone?
And it wont be someone I have to force myself to fall for.
If it happens, itll be because its meant to.
Im busy building a life that excites me rather than treading water waiting for someone else to.
