Im really critical about every single mistake I make.
I could think about something for weeks and previously years/months.
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Updated 1 year ago,January 16, 2024
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1.How easily I lose interest in people.
Im not someone who just dumps others but its like the second they fuck up Im a goner.
3.My lack of confidence holds me back from doing anything.
4.How much alcohol I have to drink to express any emotion.
5.The ability to lie without skipping a beat.
Its scary how easy it is.
6.I cannot bring myself to talk to other people sometimes.
Ive missed out on giving important information to others just because Im too nervous to go up to them.
7.I get bored in relationships easily.
Scares me that Ill never find a wife or want to stay with them for the long haul.
Whether due to social anxiety, a fight, or not keeping in contact.
10.The way I adapt my persona to the person Im speaking to.
Makes me a danger to myself.
13.I dont think Ill ever find love.
16.How little I feel things, especially happy or joyful things.
I cant remember the last time I was actually excited about something.
I compare it to a really watered down drink.
I know theres alcohol in there, but I can barely taste it.
17.If I have one drink, I willinevitablylose an indeterminate number of days.
I dont drink anymore.
18.Im really critical about every single mistake I make.
I could think about something for weeks and previously years/months.
Making mistakes is ok and its how you learn.
Great mix of personality traits right there.
20.How I can so easily put a fake smile on and say Im okay.
And how I dont cry anymore.
Whether its something to buy or to eat or whatever.
22.Sometimes I am not able to notice things that other people easily can in terms of being socially acceptable.
Some things I do that are wrong to the majority dont make sense to me.
Its definitely gotten me into arguments with my family and my boyfriend.
23.I dont feel any excitement for anything anymore, Im not passionate about anything.
Im just kinda gliding through life.
Its just this all powerful, self destructive monster within my own brain.
Im afraid it might be right about me not being smart enough to achieve my goals.
I hate that about myself.
Im scared of being scared of any kind of interaction.
I think too much before I do something.
Im trying to fix it but the hurdle just increases.
Sometimes I go so long without interacting with another human that I forget what my own voice sounds like.
I can be withdrawn, pissed, anxious, excited, pessimistic, optimistic, etc.
and shift between each for no reason at all.
32.That I will never stop being the quote unquote inferior one with my friends.
I always feel that they talk over me and never give me a chance to speak.
33.I give up so easily.
As soon as something becomes mildly challenging I seize up and want to run away from it.
35.I tend to be mean/meaner to the people I love and super nice to strangers.
I dont know why.
It really bothers me.
Ive been emotionally abusive at times.
And Im still disappointed in myself.
37.The fact that I can suddenly and instantaneously remove any emotion from my thoughts or actions.
I have friends, we go out together, I have fun with them.
Its as if I live in the moment and dont want to leave what was entertaining me.
I hate this feeling.
I hate being friends with someone I dont feel like going out with, just because of my laziness.
40.People say Im charismatic and I think that might be true.
41.Kleptomaniac tendencies, I have a small collection of useless things.
42.My constant need for adrenaline and excitement.
43.I cant tell if Im slightly narcissistic, or if Im actually mostly surrounded by morons.
44.How easily Im willing to subject myself to things that are bad for me.
45.My extreme lack of anger management.
I feel like one day Im just going to snap and somebody that doesnt deserve it gets my wrath.
Thank god it hasnt happened yet though.
46.My memory is going.
Badly enough that they can see it on MRI.
Im worried I have dementia on the way.
I have a visit with the psychologist I see about my memory tomorrow.
47.I miss being depressed and miserable.
I miss being self destructive.
I have a bunch of things going for me now.
Yet I miss being a lonely loser that just played games all day.
Slept during the day and was awake at night took part in various harming habits.
Sometimes I see people having a rough time and I envy them.
There is some comfort in that misery.
If I feel randomly depressed here and there.
I feel like Im at home.
But its probably just a side effect of having been depressed for the vast majority of my life.
I got so used to it that I feel uncomfortable and unsafe when things are going smoothly.
When people want to meet me and so on.
Sometimes I worry that Ill call back into that.
Not because of circumstances.
48.I know what I need to do to change my life and Im not doing it because Im afraid.
Ive lost too many years because of fear and Im terrified that Ill never be any different.
49.I genuinely dont like facets of my friends and despise them for it.
I find myself tolerating more than enjoying time with the people around me.
50.Honestly, my mood swings.
Or if I even just looked upset.
As an adult, its even more upsetting because Im supposed to know by now how to control myself.
Sometimes Ill get so angry that my vision starts shifting around.
