Laughing just a bit louder and smiling just a bit wider than normal.
1.Switching from happy to sad in a random instant.
Fine line between happiness and sadness, fine line indeed.
God & Man
Everything feels like the 6th consecutive hour of daytime television.
Even the most exciting things or things you love the most feel like a total drag.
3.Being more socially awkward than usual.
Because you dont want to sound like Eyore, you take a stab at fake being normal.
Because you dont want to seem needy, youre more standoffish than you would usually be.
You wind up just being super awkward.
4.Trying to make other people happy to compensate for how shitty you feel.
For me its a coping mechanism I guess.
Laughing just a bit louder and smiling just a bit wider than normal.
6.Cancelling plans or saying no to social events when this is usually not the case.
7.Trying to make as little as an impression as possible, trying to always be just a background figure.
If attention is given usually feels undeserved.
Almost olympic levels of impostor syndrome.
8.Incapability of long-term thinking.
Planning ahead, scheduling, is like rocket science for a kindergartener.
People assume that having depression just means youre sad all the time.
Youre just as likely to be irrationally angry about something as you are to be sad about it.
10.Total apathy and dissociation, inability to focus on a task.
I stared at my computer or the wall and did things only when told.
11.Trouble thinking, concentrating, and remembering.
12.Loss of interest in sex.
13.Everything seeming like a dulled shade of enjoyment.
Generally, its more considered body ache, but for me its my shoulders.
Wherever you hold stress and tension in your body will get overworked.
15.Procrastinating, because everything feels like a chore.
People with depression can sometimes lay in bed for days on end, and go weeks without showering.
17.Dropping grades and skipping classes.
Too many are labeled as a burnout, and turn to marijuana to rid themselves of anxiety.
Sometimes even harder drugs.
18.Inability to get out of bed at all.
Obviously these are all very different diagnosis, but there is more overlap than people assume.
20.This may sound odd and may just be me but food doesnt taste right.
Some things are ok but a lot of food tastes like cardboard or is just off.
21.Resisting help or treatment.
Theres a weird, almost paradoxical comfort in being depressed.
Often, youll rationalize that you deserve to feel miserable.
You might actively push away others who attempt to help, or even lash out at them.
Youre a piece of shit who deserves to be unhappy.
The person who gave up must not truly care about you.
These are lies your depression tells you, and you believe it because it feels true.
I know I need to stop, but giving becomes a weird addiction I suppose.
You dont care about what happens anymore to yourself.
24.Not keeping up with your hygiene.
Whether its not showering, brushing your teeth, or even combing your hair.
25.Taking one seemingly normal every day task and have it turn into a gigantic insurmountable ordeal.
Like taking a shower.
I know they love me, I know they would drop everything for me because they do.
You want to be alone, but to get anything done you have to ask people to help you.
29.Starving yourself without noticing.
30.Not sleeping well sleeping too much / too little.
Waking up at odd times during the night.
That sort of thing.
If you stop dreamingat all(I.e.
not even nightmares) my doc said thats when you really need to see someone.
Whether its appointments in the future, school stuff or what I did yesterday.
32.Looking forward to absolutely nothing.
34.The re-starting or commencing of bad habits such as smoking, drinking, eating junk.
I quit caring about the fact theres 16 bags of trash around me.
I completely zone out of real life and just go through motions.
36.Being angry at people for literally breathing.
37.The lack of interest or disassociation while your hanging out with people.
38.The constant, overwhelming mental fatigue.
Not necessarily physical fatigue but the feeling of chains around you, some kind of pressure keeping everything back.
Especially if its accompanied by giving stuff away.
Be vigilant if your depressed loved one is suddenly super cheerful.
Like countless times in a day till youre dry to the bone.
41.Loss of interest in the things you love to do.
43.Weight loss or weight gain.
44.The fucking cloudiness you have over all of your thoughts.
A seemingly simple chore that is just blocked in my mind from performing.
Usually involves phone calls.
I will need to call to make an appointment or just return a business call.
If I actually could do it, it would take five minutes.
But I procrastinate and do anything to avoid it, usually making the issue worse.
For example, I have maybe five dishes and a bunch of silverware in my sink.
Theyve been there a ridiculously long time.
There is nothing preventing me from doing them; it makes no logical sense to leave them.
And the task just looms bigger and bigger and gets harder to do.
46.Finding different ways to cause yourself pain without making visible marks.
You cant carry conversations unless provoked.
One word sentences become normal.
48.Being the jokester of the friend group.
People think depression is just being sad but its actually debilitating.
50.Poor gum health and poor gut health.
