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Updated 5 years ago,March 21, 2020
1.
You dont consider me a priority.
I wanted to believe you gave a damn.
God & Man
I wanted to assume we were on the same page.
If you had any intention of dating me, you would have put at least alittleeffort into our conversations.
I told myself there were more important things to worry about than whether you sent a good morning message.
You probably arent going to put any effort intoreal lifeeither.
You never missed me.
I made excuses for you.
I told myself you were too shy to send the first text.
I told myself you were swamped with work.
I told myself you were damaged from a previous relationship.
I shielded myself from the truth because it was hard to swallow:You never missed me.
You never wondered what I was doing.
Your attention doesnt mean as much when I am begging for it.
I expected the minimum from you and youstillfailed to reach my expectations.
One-sided relationships are not worth the effort.
Chasing you was exhausting.
I put constant effort into getting closer to you and you didnt appreciate any of it.
Relationships are supposed to be equal, even in the beginning.
I never should have fallen into a pattern of texting you first every single time.
I should have given you space.
I should have thought more of myself.
It hurts to love you and love should not hurt.
Love should not make me feel inadequate.
Love should not leave me restless.
Love should leave me breathless.
It should make me feel valued.
You only brought me self-doubt.
You made me question myself.
I am not supposed to be with someone like you, someone who causes me heartache.
I am supposed to be with someone who appreciates me.
Someone who misses me.
Someone who does not think twice before sending the first text.
