He said he was sorry.
He promised he was never going to make the same mistake again.
His apology seemed authentic this time.
Annie Spratt
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Updated 6 years ago,March 29, 2019
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He apologized.He said he was sorry.
He promised he was never going to make the same mistake again.
His apology seemed authentic this time.
You love him, so you want to see the best in him.
You want to believe him.
You want to give him a second chance.
You have a long, complicated history.Youve invested hours, months, years into this relationship.
You fought to get this far, so you dont want to give up on him now.
You dont want all of your hard work to be for nothing.
You are willing to sacrifice for him.
You still see him as the good guy you first met.
You know he has a soft heart.
You know he has a kind soul.
You know hes in there somewhere.
You blame alcohol for his actions.Hes nothimselfwhen hes drinking or smoking or shooting up.
Hes fine when hes sober.
Hes nice when hes sober.
You love him when hes sober.
You dont want to blame him for things he doesnt even remember doing.
You dont want to leave him when he never actuallymeantto hurt you.
You dont want to split your belongings.
You dont want to change your entire lifestyle.
Youre used to him, used to the arguments, used to the pain.
you’ve got the option to handle it for a little longer.
You blame yourself for his actions.When he gets angry with you, you see his point.
You know how frustrating you’ve got the option to be.
You cant blame him for screaming at you, cursing at you, hitting you.
You consider yourself unlovable, so you are happy he sticks around at all.
You are happy youve found someone who candeal with you.Thats what you keep telling yourself.
You are lying to yourself.You are making excuses.
You are covering for him.
You are telling yourself what you want to hear.
But it’s crucial that you leave.It doesnt matter if he apologized.
It doesnt matter if you have a history.
It doesnt matter if he used to treat you well.
It doesnt matter if hes different when he drinks.
It doesnt matter if you get under his skin.
It doesnt matter if it will be difficult to live without him.
you gotta leave.
