People who say marriage is built on compromise are people who love making excuses.
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Updated 5 years ago,May 21, 2020
Married for an ENTIRE seven months?
Im just like Miley Cyrus and Luann de Lesseps.
Timothy Barlin
hey, call me Countess Jackie!
You know how it goes: Girl meets boy.
Boy joins the Marines.
Yada, yada, yada.
Seven months later, they split.
A classic love story!
Ive been a citizen of Singlesville for over two years nowah, yes, plenty of time to reflect.
A relationship can be lonelier than being alone.
After years of being long-distance, shrouded in feelings of loneliness, being married was supposed to be bliss.
No longer alone, Id have my person by my side 24/7.
A relationship built on pixels and you still awake?
texts didnt translate well into the physical realm.
I quickly realized Ipreferredto be alone rather than to be with someone who made me feel lonely.
My joy is not dependent on anyone else.
This romantic fantasy was just thatafantasybuilt up in my head, when in reality we were hella mismatched.
Joy CITY, amiright?
Revisiting the past doesnt help.
Constantly digging up the past leaves a lot of messy dirt strewn about.
Its only when we rest that were able to see growth.
When I took a step back, I finally saw the flowers start to blossom.
Under the dirt was a relationship that wasokaybut it wasnt meant to last forever.
It was dirty and messy and provided a foundation for my own personal growth.
Dont delay the inevitable.
Honestly, I knew withinweeksthat Id made a mistake in marriage.But what would it look like to others?
Maybe I could be convinced otherwise.
Always, always follow your gut.
Ladies, fellas, let me let you in on a little secret: Your gut knows whats up.
I had people congratulating me left and right on my marriage.
My gut was like, What the heck is there to congratulate me for?
Ive made a terrible mistake!
I felt so trapped in this decision Id made and I lied to myself.
In fact, I had super cold feet the night before we eloped.
My gut was screaming at me, GIRL, TAKE THE MIDNIGHT TRAIN TO GEORGIAGET OUTTA HERE.
I ignored my gut and immediately regretted it.
People who say marriage is built on compromise are people who love making excuses.
Marriage is hard work, they say.
You have to give up things you love to be happytogether.
Compromise is agreeing to go to the beach instead of the park for a day.
Compromise is making tacos for dinner instead of pasta.
Compromise shouldnever,ever bleed into your values, hopes, dreams, and desires.
A vow can be broken, but my spirit cannot.
My ex tried to guilt me into staying with him because we made vows.
Well, sure, a vow is a nice sentiment.
But you know what?
Spoiler alert: I broke that vow.
Because ice cream is hella delicious and #YOLO.
And I broke my marriage vows for the same reason.
Vanilla was getting old and I needed a new, nuttier flavor in my life.
Its okay to get swept up in something and realize that maybe it wasnt the best decision.
Learn to be true to yourself always, always,always!
Being alone is scary, but being lonely in a relationship is worse.
I look forward to my next relationship, knowing what I know now.
Hope to see you there!
