You avoid grocery stores, travel destinations, pubs, and restaurants that you have fond memories of.
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Updated 4 years ago,December 2, 2020
We lose people all the timetoo many times.
To divorce, to death, and to affairs.
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The pain of losing someone you loved makes you question all the wonderful memories you created with them.
You question your worth and your existence.
You blame the other, the doctors, the timing, and the neighbors.
They take their care, their love, their vows, their promises, everything.
You wonder if this world will ever be the same.
Your small bubble without them.
You work like a horse during the day until you pass out from fatigue and pain at night.
You leave your feelings absolutely no room to breathe.
You ensure there is so much more to deal with, though these matters may be trivial at times.
Reliving details of death and baggage of a relationship is not what you want to do right now.
People always ask questions to quench their curiosity.
Insensitive things just pour out of their mouths without them even trying.
You watch too much numbing TV
Or play games or drink or read fantasy books nonstop.
You do anything else that can keep you at the facade of your feelings.
Anything that will make the hours melt into minutes.
Anything that lets you escape your loss.
You just dont want to be alone with your feelings.
Anything you value can be taken away from you in a split second.
You take a hard, long look at your life without them.
And you make changes, big ones.
You move cities and change professions.
You color your hair pink.
You hide and cry
Your distractions hide at night when everything becomes darker.
Feelings ambush you from all corners of the night when no one else is looking.
Nothing can hold your attention anymore, and you cry under the cold covers.
When tears start rolling, they never seem to stop.
You succumb to the power of release.
You avoid grocery stores, travel destinations, pubs, and restaurants that you have fond memories of.
Memories that include your loved one.
Memories that you cant bear to hold in your heart anymore.
Memories that are lopsided with grief now.
This is another reason why you venture to stay at home as much as possible.
Home is the place where you have some control over your triggers.
You find it hard to wake up and face the day
Some days are harder than others.
Your body catches up and you have zero energy to face the day.
A day thats different from all your past days with your loved one.
It just stays there like a ghost from your past.
It will always be there.
