I know I dont show it or say it, but I really do.
I mean, were going through a global pandemic for starters.
One thing thats remained constant ever since is the question ofif I really do love you.
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I know I dont show it or say it, but I really do.
With all my heart.
More on some days than others, but the feelings always lurking.
I dont think I have any other metaphor that could explain how I feel.
Its so damn difficult to read youwith your bad boy attitude and Mr. Mystery Man ways.
Weve been friends for years and I see through all your games.
You still go ahead and do everything you do, probably because you know no other way.
The worst part is that I cant even blame you.
Its one of the things thats got me hooked on you.
Our first kiss is still fresh in my mind.
And all the other ones after that too.
Its not easy getting all those memories out of my system.
It felt so perfect in that moment.
I bet you think about it too.
Would you have wanted it any other way?
Sometimes I think you like me too.Why shouldnt I?
Think about all the signals you send me.
I want you so much it makes me cry.
There is no way I can describe it in words.
Yet youre not here.
How is that fair?
I know you will never confess.
That is if there is a slight chance of that happening in a gazillion realities.
You wont ever say it.
I know you too well to know how you absolutely loathe being vulnerable.
There is no us.
Thats one of the reasons why were both holding back.
We know this is going to go nowhere.
And quite honestly, neither of us would want that.
But you already knew that.
