I think the part I’ve been saving for you died.
I have it on loop and feel like my computer is judging me.
Its the only sound I can stand.
Adam Birkett
I turn it off and try something else but my heart starts screaming and its disturbing.
I put it on.
Everything else is quiet again.
I wonder if you ever listen to it.
I havent had sex in a year and you were shocked when I told you.
You asked how Ive survived and I laughed, I dont know, its not a big deal.
Adam Birkett
I guess Ive never needed people the way you do.
I love love, but I dont go searching.
I dont need a body in my bed or a person texting me good morning all the time.
I would rather remain alone.
I would rather lone wolf it.
Until theres someone, someone like you, I cant imagine being anywhere other than in my life.
I still have that red wig.
I cant put it on without remembering Bridgette, my alter-ego.
I was so mad that you wanted to fuck her.
You grabbed my shoulders, half frustrated, half entertained at my jealousy.
I WANT TO FUCK YOU!
Im afraid I actuallyamthe Manic Pixie Dream Girl.
Meaning, Im not real.
Meaning, you wanted me during the movie, but Im not who the main character settles down with.
Youve got a fancy job in a fancy city and an apartment you live in all by yourself.
Im 25 and just now finally figured out how to cook.
What happens to the Manic Pixie Dream Girl?
Does the love of her life marry an accountant?
Is passion not sustainable?
Is it better to barrel forward with a proven thing?
I cant forget the last conversation.
I think I cried so hard, I didnt have any more room to miss you after.
It was like something in me died.
I woke up with a swollen face.
I think the part Ive been saving for you died.
Theres a chance well never talk again.
I leave it up to you.
But I know, we were full of good.
Even when it wasnt easy, there was so much good.
Even now, all I can think of is the good.
