I still check his social media!!!
Even though we dont talk!!!
I still get butterflies when theres something new!!!
What the FUCK!!!
I want to change it back to nothing.
I want to delete the conversation.
Im not sure if thatd be worse than how it is now.
I WILLINGLY AND KNOWINGLY SPENT $15 ON A GIN AND TONIC.
I am actually about to turn 23 and still look like Im 18.
I feel like I do the same thing with people.
Ive been secretly wallowing for three days over it.
I spent hours writing something I knew nobody would read.
Ugh, I said we were fine, but I am still so mad at you.
I notice patterns in his behavior that remind me of myself two years ago.
Is this my fault?
I am doing better, but I cant help.
I ignored his call on Wednesday.
I drank milk that had expired three months ago.
But it made me think it was okay to look back at those things every single day since.
