Its still heartbreaking to me, how much love we let go to waste.
So many questions left with no answers.
So many burning holes in my heart left empty.
Anastasia Mya
There are so many things I wish I said when I had the chance.
It was premeditated, I felt something change in that last hug.
I wouldnt have let you drive away, and sat in my car crying by myself.
Id want to tell you about the nightmares Ive had since you left.
I spent every night waking up in cold sweats, turning on my light to ensure you werent here.
I also want to tell you I wouldve forgiven you a million more times.
I think somethings broken in me, I think I was born without the ability to hold a grudge.
Or maybe its just against you.
Whatever it is, I wish it wasnt.
Ive forgiven you for things no human should have to endure, yet I dont hate you.
In fact I still love you.
It was never supposed to be this way.
Its still heartbreaking to me, how much love we let go to waste.
People would kill to have what we had or at least what I had.
Im not sure anymore if you are capable of loving.
Id tell you how much every little moment with you meant to me.
I tell you how nowhere in my entire life has ever felt safer than your arms.
Do you think wed be living far away from all this like we planned?
Riding off into the sunset, to start our family like we talked about?
Or maybe you needed that night to snap you back to reality.
I just wish I could ask where you think this was going.
I keep telling myself you were the right person at the wrong time.
But do you think we will get the right time?
Maybe its long gone, our chances are slim, but Id take the risk.
