May I always believe in You.
You knew that I hit rock bottom.
Today, God, Im tired.
Daria Shevtsova
Im tired of faking my smile and pretending that Im fine all the time.
Im tired of holding back my tears each day so no one will tell me to stop being weak.
Im tired of hiding all my insecurities and telling everyone that Im strong enough to handle everything by myself.
Im tired of struggling on this battlefield which I dont know how to win.
Im tired of facing those rejections and disappointments.
Im tired of having a heart which always needs mending.
So, God, just help me to go through this.
God, Im scared of what will happen to me in the future.
Will I survive this storm?
Will I be content with what I have?
Will I still be able to help other people?
Will I ever be happy?
Youve shown me how the real world works.
Youve shown me that this world is cruel.
Youve shown me how humans can be so greedy and ungrateful for your blessings.
You know me better than I do.
You know whats best for me and you have planned my life.
I hope youll make me find peace with what you decreed for me.
