You could have never known how much this year would change you.
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Updated 3 months ago,January 28, 2025
I cant believe you are 27 now.
Do you remember what it felt like to be that young?
Christian Widell
You were sad all of the time.
You were struggling, and I dont think that many people knew.
Being 20 meant more than just leaving your teenage years behind.
Your twentieth year here simultaneously became the year you found your strength and then lost it all.
You could have never known how much this year would change you.
You cried on your floor and wondered why you were even there in the first place.
You sobbed and wondered how someone like you could have gotten mixed up with so many talented people.
You even began to convince yourself that you did not belong there or maybe even anywhere at all.
But then, everything began to change.
Your dream job called, and this time, you were sobbing tears of joy.
Someone had finally seen your potential and maybe now, you would be able to see it, too.
Do you remember how it felt to be so close to giving up?
Imagine what would have happened if you did.
The trajectory of your entire life would have changed.
I hope that you never lose that memory so that you never get that close to losing yourself again.
You were so naive then.
You were always strong, but that summer made you stronger.
You stopped blaming yourself for the actions of others and started to believe that you deserved to be here.
I hope you always remember that you deserve to be here.
Do you remember how unstoppable you felt after that summer?
But then, you met him.
This was the year you met the person whose actions would shape your life forever.
This was the year he devoured you.
I wish I could have saved you from all of the pain.
But for the first time in a long time, you felt love.
I hope one day you stop blaming yourself for the abuse, for everything.
You went from being an independent, goal-oriented woman to someone I cannot even recognize today.
Suddenly, you were a lot less concerned with discoveringyourdreams so that you could attempt to fit yourself intohis.
I just wish I would have known better.
I am so sorry that I didnt know better.
You never could have anticipated that seven years later, you would still be haunted by his toxic love.
I dont know if we will ever be able to find all of our pieces.
His hands have never forcibly touched this body.
His words have never stung this heart, this mind.
You are renewed, and you are better because of it all.
You still dont have it all figured out, and some days, it seems like you never will.
But just because something appears easier on the outside doesnt mean that it actually is.
I am so happy that you finally broke free.
Heres to another seven years of becoming the person you were always destined to be.
