Every day, I wonder if you think of me.
I wonder if you miss me.
I wonder if you regret your decision.
Brad Neathery
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Updated 8 years ago,July 11, 2017
I hardly even know where to begin.
Im so angry with you.
I know thats completely and utterly unproductive, but its the truth.
Brad Neathery
I feel betrayed and hurt and confused.
I feel like an idiot I shouldve known better, right?
I shouldve seen through all your pretty words and known that you had no staying power.
I dont want to blame myself for trying to believe in love again, but I do.
Id begun making real moves towards the future I want.
Then you came along and you made me believe I could feel something deeply for someone again.
Why would you do that to me?
I thought so much better of you.
Clearly I was mistaken, and thats why Im now wondering if Im a complete idiot.
Id like to believe that you meant what you said.
I wish I had seen it earlier.
I know in my gut that you cared for me.
I saw it in your face every time you looked at me.
All I can figure out, knowing that you felt strongly about me, was that you got scared.
You were afraid of feeling real feelings and it made you want to cut and run.
I know thats the truth of it, but the bottom line is that makes you a coward.
I know the worth of that connection.
I know how infrequently something so special comes around.
It breaks my heart that you dont.
How have I let this happen to me again?
How do I continue to pick emotionally stunted men even when I think that Ive chosen differently?
Im losing all faith in my instincts.
Every day, I wonder if you think of me.
I wonder if you miss me.
I wonder if you regret your decision.Ill never know and it doesnt matter.
I have to move forward with my life.
