The ‘when’ is different than the ‘almost’ because of one very specific thing.
It could be a question mark, an ellipsis.
But more often than not, a when is followed by trailing off.
Zara Walker
Its followed by nothing solid.
Theres nothing after a when because a when is really just a placeholder.
You just sit there talking about whens and how different things will be when you find them.
Ive always been consumed by the whens in life.
The things I want to do but for whatever reason, dont.
The whens leave me feeling incomplete.
See something, someone, thats enough.
All Ive ever really wanted to feel, to be, is like Im enough.
But the difficult thing about enoughs is like whens, they arent definable.
Is enough even achievable?
And maybe thats the key here.
Youre never going to be truly happy.
Ill be hotter, Ill be happier, Ill be more successful, Ill be betterwhen.
Because thats the thing about obsessing over the possible, the probabal.
The couldbes and the wants and the incompletes.
When youre obsessed over things that dont have a definitive, youre probablystillalways going to feeling unsatisfied.
But lets be real.
The when is different than the almost because of one specific thing.
And really, thats quite simply that an almost was probably a when at one point.
I dont really have the answer for how to stop obsessing over possibility and start focusing on the practical.
Maybe its something you learn to do after youve unlocked something else.
Maybe its something you only are allowed to understand after you achieve some sort of self-actualization.
Maybe its something you only get to learnwhen…
