Father, c’mon be with this boy I loved.
Show him how powerful you are, how big your heart is.
There are arteries with tiny holes, for all the ways Ive convinced myself I wasnt enough.
God & Man
There are veins that pump too wildly because sometimes theres just too much emotion happening in there.
There are parts that are bruised; I havent been so good with guarding what youve given me.
But my hearts still intact; though days like today it sure doesnt feel like it.
God, youve given me the gift of love.
But sometimes I dont understand it.
Why do you let us fall for people who maybe arent right for us?
God & Man
Why do you let us get cheated on, mistreated, broken, and left?
Whats the lesson were supposed to be learningTo not settle until weve found the real thing?
To look for love like your love?
To be strong in loss?and why must we learn it in such a painful way?
You brought this wonderful man into my life.
You allowed me to have feelings, deep feelings that sometimes I question looking back.
If he wasnt right for me, God, then why did you let me love him?
I guess thats one of the things Ill always wonder.
Maybe you brought him into my life to teach me how to let others in.
Maybe he was supposed to be a blessing for a time, but also a lesson.
Maybe he was pulling me away from you, so you let us fall apart.
Maybe we were meant to be temporary, not permanent because we belong to other people.
Maybe our breakup will make me stronger in time.
But God, its so hard to know your purpose sometimes.
Its so hard to make sense of the ache in my chest.
Its so hard to look at photos of him and remember what we hadwas it all for nothing?
I come to you today with my heart in fragments.
I come to you today with bitterness and anger, with doubt and frustration, with loneliness and fear.
I come to you, wondering why.
It is possible to forgive him and let him go?
God, my heart feels tired.
Tired of being stepped on.
Tired of being left.
Tired of being taken advantage of.
Tired of being given to the wrong person, only to end up empty in the end.
I need you to renew strength in me.
And I need you to help me forgive him.
hey give me the strength to let goof the past, of the pain, of him.
Father, like be with this boy I loved.
Show him how powerful you are, how big your heart is.
Show him forgiveness and a change of heart.
Show him a new path to walk on.
Show him acceptance and grace and mercy.
Show him that I have forgiven him, and like help that to be true.
Because I do think Ive forgiven him, when I close my eyes and open my heart.
God, give me the strength to let go and pursue love again.
Give me the compassion to move on from whats been lost and follow in your ways.
