I will never tell you that I have feelings for you.
By
Updated 5 years ago,December 10, 2019
You came into my life when I least expected.
Everything felt so easy with you.
Lena Bell
I felt like I could talk to you about anything and you would never judge me.
You were my good morning and my good night.
But then, after a few short months, everything ended.
Maybe I was moving too close for comfort.
Maybe you realized that you werent ready to commit.
Maybe the timing wasnt right.
Or maybe you came to the realization that I was not the woman for you.
I still think about you, and sometimes I cant help but fantasize about what could have been.
I cant help to think that we would have been so perfect together.
We were so different, but somehow so much alike.
I will never tell you that whenever I get a notification on my phone, I hope its you.
Every time I saw your name on my phone screen, I could not help but smile.
It didnt matter how shitty my day was, you always had the power to brighten my day.
I will never tell you that I secretly get jealous.
I get jealous when I see you talking and flirt with other women.
I get jealous because I wish I was still the one that had your attention.
How I wish I was the one you only had eyes for.
I will never tell you that I fight my urge to contact you.
But I stop myself at my tracks.
I delete everything that I typed and I just hope that you are doing okay.
I miss how your arms felt wrapped around me.
I miss the forehead kisses.
I miss your touch, your warmth, and all of you.
But I will keep my distance and admire you from afar.
I will never tell you that I have feelings for you.
You have a kind heart.
You care for others.
You are very romantic.
You are an old soul that feels lost in the modern world just like me.
I will never tell you that I cried for you behind closed doors.
I will never tell you that I still hope that perhaps one day you will come back.
Maybe I was moving too fast and you just werent ready.
Maybe one day you will realize how good we would be together and decide to give us a try.
I will never know why life brought us together to only pull us apart.
There is nothing that I can say or do to change the reality of things.
I wanted more and you did not.
I am letting go of all the fantasies I had about you.
I am letting go of all the memories.
I am letting it all out on this piece of paper.
I am finally letting you go so I can continue to move forward.
hey take care of yourself.
