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Updated 7 years ago,December 6, 2017
1.
I liked his hat.
Were friends, I think.
Katya Alagich
But I just want him to be happy.
And I think someday he will be.
I actually didnt and to this day, dont.
We have philosophical conversations about the Kardashians and the same taste in wine.
Shes smarter than me.
Shes smarter than everyone.
Katya Alagich
I feel like shes one of those people who isnt just a friend anymore, shes my family.
I dont know if things will ever be normal or okay again between us.
And frankly, I dont think I even really know what that means.
Does anyone know how to go from being something to just being what you were before?
Is that even possible?
Do you ever meet someone and just know at your core that theyre just…betterthan you?
I frequently hear/say, Wow, hes the most put together person I know, and its honestly true.
And thats kind of the same when you think about it.
I feel very protective of her.
But obviously when youre adults thats not really how life works.
That would be really bizarre if you think about it.
A mid-twenty-something asking a late-twenty-something, Should I date this person?
A lot of the time I think theyre wrong and I really want to lay down the law.
But then I remember what its like to try and carve out a place for yourself.
To really try and make something yours and build something for yourself.
I think shes better than most of us.
I dont think she gives herself enough credit.
For most of my life Ive had trouble making new friends.
Im difficult to get along with.
She just understands me.
And thats something I never expected to find on Twitter.
Most of my role models have always been people I didnt actually know.
Celebrities, politicians, women I saw in interviews but never actually met.
Writers I put on a pedestal of Ill never be as good as them.
And for a long time, she was one of those writers.
Hell, she still is.
Maybe thats normal for some people, but it feels really special to me.
I dont think he really wants anything to do with me anymore.
At some point in our lives he went one way, and I detoured along another.
I hope he doesnt think I just forgot about him.
Because I would never want him to feel that.
I was scared, I was lonely even though there was someone sleeping beside me almost every night.
I didnt know what to do with myself.
And even if you find it kind of stupid, you have to admit its special.
