Because you’re you.
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Updated 4 years ago,March 1, 2021
1.Connection is rare for me.
I have lived the majority of my life feeling like I dont belong.
Feeling most myself alone.
I am still okay alone.
I still do not need anyone else to feel like myself.
I am still okay if people dont get me.
But I like you around.
I like you with me.
I like you here.
I like you right here.
Im glad youre alive and right here.
Are you excited to see Seattle?
song and dance of meeting in person for the first time, it was like coming home.
Even though…I was already home.
This is a bad metaphor.
Youre a better writer than me, but I dont feel an ounce of competition about it.
And why would I ever want to be jealous of home when I could just be in it.
You reminded me I am allowed to want things.
You reminded me it is okay to want to be happy.
I care that much.
It is pure and sweet and happy and we all deserve some happy in our lives.
You are my goals.
Youre forgiving, patient, somehow still honest and right.
You are someone I cannot wait to grow old with.
And someone I know I will get to and how lucky am I?
But I havent had to.
And youre managing and figuring things out and trying.
And thats something like a light at the end of the tunnel.
And you hold my hand when you see me picking while Im watching TV.
And for some reason, things feel calmer when youre around.
And for some reason, I always want you around.
8.I have a complicated relationship with family.
I have a complicated relationship with female figures in my life.
You have always felt like a maternal, big sister to me.
I dont know if you know how much that means to me.
But if you didnt, its a lot.
9.I read somewhere that once a friendship has exceeded seven years it means itll be a lifelong friendship.
So Im not sure what 17 years means but I guess we should probably have side-by-side graves.
Theres no one I would rather spend eternity with than you.
10.You talk in your sleep.
Which if anyone else did I would find it annoying and frustrating because Im the lightest of light sleepers.
But with you, its cute.
Its like seeing behind the veil of hardass you work so hard to maintain.
Im putting it on the list of reasons I like you so I never forget.
11.I think I owe you more than I can fully articulate.
You took a chance on me and presented me with a world of opportunity I didnt really know existed.
Sure, I made a lot of it happen myself.
But you opened the door.
I think Im more grateful than I can fully articulate, and more grateful than you could probably know.
And its still, and probably always will be a foreign feeling.
Something that I hesitate at.
Something better than okay?
Well, thats something I would like to keep around.
Something I would like right here.
