I found myself falling in love with absolutely no one and I fell completely out of love with myself.
2.Could only talk about you.
And eventually became a broken record evenIwas sick of hearing.
Han Cheng Yeh
5.Entertained the idea that I could fall in love with just anyone.
6.So I instead found myself falling in love with absolutely no one.
7.And I fell completely out of love with myself.
8.I started to hate myself.
9.I lost 15 pounds.
10.I drank enough to kill someone.
Han Cheng Yeh
And maybe subconsciously a tiny part of me was hoping that it would.
11.I gave myself bangs.
I cut my hair.
13.Completely fell apart in this new city.
It was all my fault.
16.Gained all of those 15 pounds and then some.
Felt wildly uncomfortable in my body.
Refused to wear bikinis or bandage skirts or anything sexy because frankly, I didnt feel that way anymore.
17.Decided it would be better to be strong than skinny.
So I focused on that instead.
19.I completely stopped talking to people who served no purpose in my life.
Even if theyd once been incredibly important to me.
Because sometimes to grow you have to let things go.
Even when it hurts.
21.And watched myself fall out of love with you.
22.And watched myself be okay with it.
23.I gave myself permission to be someone completely unlike anyone Id ever been before.
24.I decided change was maybe not just okay, but necessary.
26.And Ive decided I might be able to love her.
Maybe not right away.
27.And I think thats enough.
