Asorrydoesnt take back the baggage you dropped onto my shoulders when I was much too young.
Im happy you are able to self-reflect, to see the pain you have caused.
Im happy you are putting in the effort to change your life.
Riccardo Mion
Im happy you are trying to better yourself.
But an apology is not going to make everything you did to me okay.
It is not going to erase the pain you inflicted upon me.
It is not going to stop the nightmares, the flashbacks, the ongoing fear.
An apology is nice but it does not mean you get to walk right back into my world.
It does not mean you get absolved of your sins.
It sucks you feel guilty.
It sucks you have lost sleep over this mess.
But honestly, youshouldfeel guilty.
Youshouldfeel horrible for what youve done.
Asorrydoes not take back the nights I woke up crying into my pillowcase or screaming at shadows.
If you were allowed to treat me like shit for months, Im allowed to ignore your messages.
Im allowed to block your number.
Im allowed to disregard your apology.
I dont care if you mean every word.
Those words are meaningless.
Those words are coming way too late.
you’ve got the option to keep saying younever meant to hurt mebut you did.
you’re free to keep sayingI hate the way things ended between usbecause I do too.
I dont want to hear it.
I dont want to be involved with any more drama with you.
I dont want to fight.
I dont want to talk.
I dont want to deal with you.
I want to move on.
I am trying to forget you.
I am trying to take care of my mental health.
I am trying to heal.
Im never going to forgive you.
