Every day and night.
Then you feel ashamed because it makes you sound ungrateful.
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Updated 6 years ago,October 22, 2019
Youjustfeel lonely.
Miriam Espacio
Everybody tells you that youre lucky.
That you have friends, family, a loving partner who all support you, and so much more.
They tell you to be grateful and youare.But sometimes all of that can seem so…distant.
You struggle with your feelings of loneliness.
You blame yourself for feeling this way.
After all, you shouldnt feel lonely you have so much in life, so much love.
But deep inside, you feel an emptiness that starts to consume you day by day.
Its indescribable and numbing, and its ever-present.
There are days when you dont feel as lonely, though.
It comes and goes in waves, and it always manages to hit you in the worst moments.
You feel bad for canceling appointments and flaking on your friends.
However, you do that because you feel lonely and in no condition to socialize.
This, in turn, makes you feelaloneon top of that.
Every day and night.
Its a vicious cycle that never stops.
You wish you could just feel happy and accepted.
You want to feel fulfilled and satisfied, you want to feelless lonely.But you dont know how.
This feeling consumes you and turns you into your worst enemy.
Every day feels like torture filled with endless loneliness.
And you dont know how to stop it.
You hope that one day youll wake up and not feel lonely at all.
You hope that youll understand that this feeling comes and goes and that its not your fault.
You pray that this day will come.
And that it will feel like all the clouds that were separating you from happiness will disperse in seconds.
You patiently wait for that day to come.
And know that it will.
