I would tell you that Im so glad youre back, I really am.
But … we need to take things slow.
After all, you did leave me.
Daria Shevstova
Im hurt, but Im not angry.
After every maddening struggle we endured, our separation was sadly inevitable.
No matter how I wanted the ability, I could not control our circumstances.
If you came back, I would have to stop myself from gathering you up into my arms.
Ive longed for that moment every day, but its not that simple.
Opening my heart to you was no easy task in the first place.
I know that this isnt all your doing.
I have my own flaws and I am a constant work in progress.
Still, you left my spirit trampled and devoid of hope, whether you meant to or not.
You most likely stifled your feelings and pushed them aside, as you do.
None of it worked, and thats when I knew for sure that Id never keep you.
It didnt matter what I did.
Its not your fault, but its an unavoidable truth.
So if you came back, Id have some questions.
Id choke down my words of joy and force myself to weigh your apologies.
In the end, our feelings for each other cannot solve the issues that drove us apart.
I would have to know are you all in?
Are you sure, beyond a doubt, that this is what you want?
I love you, but I will no longer settle for less than what I give you.
I wont go back if you arent sure how you feel about me.
The effort must be equal on both ends.
Otherwise, what are we even doing?
Dont come back to me because you miss the way I made you feel about yourself.
Dont come back to me because I made you feel comfortable.
Come back because you are ready to meet me where I stand.
I love you more than I ever knew I could love anyone.
I want you more than Ive ever wanted anyone.
But not at the cost of losing myself.
Not at the cost of going through the pain all over again.
If you come back, you should probably show me that somethings changed.
