Trusting me enough to become emotionally vulnerable in our relationship is the greatest gift you could ever grant me.
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Updated 6 years ago,April 27, 2019
You pause, and I know whats coming.
I see it so clearly, though I can tell you imagine youre behaving subtly.
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It seems that you dont quite grasp how well I understand your deflections.
Its only because I have so much practice in avoidance myself.
I want intimacy that transcends all judgment and categorization.
Im not asking you to give up your individuality no, entirely the opposite.
Im asking you to summon the courage to reveal yourself.
I want to know you in the deepest way possible.
Dont misunderstand me I love our lightness, our shared laughter.
You make me cackle with unexpected glee on a delightfully regular basis.
Without the necessary depth, we can only fly so high.
Show me something more.
Give me what Ive always longed for and never quite achieved.
Let me into your tissue, your bones, your dark matter.
We must dissect each other lovingly and with care.
Its the only way to evolve, the only way to keep our unique spark alive.
Of course its scary.
Of course it takes great strength to let another human being see all your weird and ugly and different.
I hope you know that Ill only love you more for every layer you unfold for me.
I am trying to demonstrate to you that you have a safe space with me, always.
You might not believe me, no matter how repeatedly I reinforce that fact for you.
I will admit to you that Im afraid.
I fear that instead of leaning in, youll refuse me and disappear into yourself.
All youve done so far is pleasantly surprise me when I dread the worst.
All I want is for you to let me love you.
Not in a superficial way, but in each and every delicate manner possible.
Its okay if that means temporary discomfort.
I have no fear of digging in.
Never achieving that keen, precious thread of understanding beyond anything weve found before.
I beg you, let me in.
