An apology makes less and less sense the more times you have to make it.
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Updated 6 years ago,October 17, 2019
An apology made sense the first time around.
You made a mistake.
God & Man
You felt horrible about it.
I chose to forgive you under the assumption you were going to make amends.
I chose to forgive you because you promised me it was never going to happen again.
An apology makes less and less sense the more times you have to make it.
History wouldnt have repeated itself.
We wouldnt be in this situation right now.
An apology doesnt make sense at this point in time.
I fix my mistakes.
I change my behaviors.
And this time, the behavior I have to change is associating with you.
Im not calling your apology a fraud.
Im not claiming youre lying when you say you wish you never hurt me.
I consider myself a forgiving person but I will never be a gullible person.
I will never stay in a situation that is unhealthy for me.
Im glad youre taking responsibly for your actions.
Im glad youre admitting you messed up.
But an apology isnt going to work this time around.
An apology isnt going to take away what you put me through.
Its not going to erase the nights I cried deep into my pillowcase.
Its not going to erase the scars left on my heart.
Its not going to do a damn thing for me.
All its going to do is makeyoufeel better about yourself.
Now that youve apologized, you probably feel like youve done all it’s possible for you to do.
You probably feel like Im the bad guy for choosing to walk away.
You probably feel like youre the one getting the bad end of the deal because yousaidyou were sorry.
You said all of the right things.
Words arent enough to convince me to stay.
you oughta back up your apologies with your actions.
you should probably make a change to your behavior.
If your apologies mean nothing, then theres no reason for me to stay.
I refuse to get my heart broken a third time.
I refuse to lower my standards when I deserve so much more than this.
