You see weve all had our hearts broken on some level at some point in time.
Most of us learn very young that the world isnt such a kind place.
Lots of wrong ones.
*Twenty20 / @pratavetra_*
It was never enough.
He made me feel whole in every way.
When I was with him, my insecurities were nonexistent.
He made me happy, he made me laugh, and he made me trust him.
My biggest regret will forever be trusting him.
Ive never had trust issues before so Im not sure how to handle them.
Nobody had ever broken my trust like this before.
Yeah, some people had made me feel pretty shitty about myself, but never like this.
I spent every night home, blaming myself.
Why am I not as pretty as she is?
Or as skinny as she is?
What does she have that I dont?
Why did I believe him so easily?
Why am I so naive?
Countless hours I spent, alone, wondering what I couldve done differently to make him stay.
Once again, I wasnt good enough.
I wish I could convince myself thats not the case.
Ill tell people I believe it but I dont.
In my head I know I dont believe it, in my head, its still my fault.
I cant blindly trust anyone like that again.
When you tell me youre falling for me, Im sorry if I push away.
When you promise me youre not with anyone else, Im sorry if I dont believe you.
Its hard for me to believe anything again.
