You invent new ones.
Well, it was going just as I wanted.
Things seemed to be looking up after a rough beginning of the year.
God and Man
And then, I lost my job.
This had all been part of the plan from when I was 15.
You invent new ones.
Oh dont get me wrong, it wasnt that easy.
I spent a lot of time on my bedroom floor, sobbing and feeling sorry for myself.
Until I one day I grew sick of it.
God and Man
I changed every life goal I had.
That book was meant for an alternative universe Nikita, not me.
Then, I began a new book, with new goals.
The first goal: Learn how to love yourself again.
I began to meditate every morning.
Wake up a bit earlier.
Have a healthy breakfast.
Stop myself from apologising all the time.
Accepted my flaws for what they are and learned to live with them.
Tried to do two good things for other people everyday.I took myself on long walks out in nature.
Read all the books I had been meaning to and never got around to.
I began to slowly live my truth, unapologetically.
I travelled more in this one year than I have in the last six.
The person I was at the beginning of this year.
The jobless, loveless, broken person…I remember her.
I remember how much work it took to stop being that person.
I do not apologise for my emotions and I do not associate with people who are fake/two faced anymore.
I started again at almost thirty.
