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Updated 6 years ago,January 29, 2019
Because of my loneliness, I met you.
The only thing that went away because of your presence in my life wasme.
Because of my loneliness, I lost myself in you.
God & Man
I was never used to being on my own.
I was rarely alone.
You were my escape plan from all of the problems in my life.
You toyed with my emotions and laughed as I frantically tried to hold it altogether.
I should have left you the first chance that I could.
But because of my loneliness, I convinced myself it would never happen again.
Because of my loneliness, I stayed.
Even when I knew I shouldnt.
I can pinpoint the exact moment everything began to change.
I wanted so badly for our relationship to work out.
Except your love never sat quite right with me.
Our relationship was about pleasing you.
I had no value past what my body could do to gratify yours.
I rarely said no because I knew what would happen if I did.
Because of my loneliness, I let you take advantage of me.
Because of my loneliness, I convinced myself that this was what people who loved each other did.
Because of my loneliness, I often think of going back to you.
Because of my loneliness, I have tried to contact you again.
My loneliness tells me that if I would have just stayed with you, I would be better off.
But only if I continued to give myself up for you.
Because of my loneliness, I was willing to change my dreams to fall in line with yours.
Because of my loneliness, I always blame myself.
It makes sure I understand that every failed relationship is no ones fault but my own.
There is always something that I could have done differently or said better.
Somehow, I always manage to ruin everything.
I just should have beenmore.
Because of my loneliness, I cannot help but feel inadequate.
But then I remind myself of who I was before I metyou.
You see, my loneliness would like me to believe that I am nothing.
Because of my loneliness, I have seen what happens on the days when the light wont come out.
But because of my loneliness, I have learned that sometimes you have to be the light.
Because of my loneliness, I have found my strength.
I am whole, even when it tries to tell me I am broken.
I am here, even when it tries to tell me I should leave.
And I am fighting, even if it tells me I have already lost.
Because of my loneliness, I have found myself.
