The truth is that in love feeling is not meant to last.
Relationships have highs and lows.
You cant live on a peak forever.
Christiana Rivers
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Updated 7 years ago,April 7, 2018
It used to be enough.
It used to be exciting.
It used to be everything…until it just wasnt anymore.
I used to live for the adventure of us.
Nothing else could come close to comparing.
No one could understand it.
Christiana Rivers
Half the time we did not even understand.
We knew, we loved each other.
We were crazy, but we wouldnt have it any other way.
It was a rush and it was worth it.
Until I wasnt anymore.
Buts thats the thing it wasnt me…
I blamed myself for a long time.
I constantly wondered what I did to make him stop loving me.
I was stuck in a past that haunted me.
Our memories were almost taunting.
The smiles we had on our old photos, felt like they were laughing at me now.
I constantly tried to recreate our past.
Pathetically hoping you would remember, what it used to be like.
One day you have to come down.
That come down will be hard.
If the in love feeling is all you have, it wont be enough.
It can take years of trying.
you could fight it, and fight for each other all you want.
This may not sound as romantic as you would like it to.
It isnt always falling in love, or great love can conquer all.
It isnt always grand gestures and movie theatre endings.
Sometimes you dont want fireworks.
Sometimes you want boring.
The perfect love just works.
What one person has the other doesnt.
They feed off each other and help each other.
Being in love is what you want, but it is not always what you need.
You may think it is true love, because you fight for it.
You may think it is real love.
because you keep coming back to each other.
You may think this is it, because he gets you.
The truth is, it would be it by now.
It would not be this hard.
Real love is pain, but hey do not confuse love with self-inflicted pain.
There is a limit on how much it’s possible for you to take for love.
Its hard to draw that line and no one can tell you when you have crossed it.
you might not make a high a home.
A rush is not enough for it to be real.
That in love feeling can slowly fade.
You need something stable and real to fall back on.
There are moments when you just look at each other and just know.
I used to think this was it.
All that fighting, all that doubt instantly disappears.
This moment is an allusion.
This moment keeps you here, when you should leave.
The perfect partner wont give you doubt.
They wont drive you crazy with indecisiveness.
That craziness you once loved and craved will seem exhausting in comparison.
You will soon question why you ever put yourself through that.
Feeling safe will feel better than feeling out of your mind.
Knowing is better than constantly guessing.
This seems like settling, it isnt.
Creating a stable relationship is not settling, it is healthy.
I know for a long time, you were manipulated.
You did not know what love was.
People always say, if it is meant to be, they will come back to you.
I am very contradicting, because I am one of those fools.
