I dont think youre worth it anymore.
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Updated 5 years ago,December 21, 2019
Dear Love,
Why are you some complicated?
Why are you such a mystery?
You disguise yourself so well, in smiles and laughter and in promises…promises to be broken.
You make knees go weak, hearts pound, butterflies fly and eyes go wide.
it’s possible for you to last a lifetime, creating warmth and happiness and light.
But then you’ve got the option to also create waterfalls, and cold, and darkness.
The hopeless chase you, the broken fear you.
Songs are written about you, movies based on you.
Fights ensue because of you and even some die for you.
And despite all the harm you may cause, its you that everyones searching for.
Some spend their entire lives never truly getting to know you, or even meeting you.
They long to be held by your arms, safe and warm.
To hear three short words.
To feel like theyve found their missing piece and are whole.
But some actually stay and realize who you truly are and realize how bad its been not knowing you.
I dont think youre worth it anymore.
You and I have some amazing memories throughout the years.
But yet you made me give my all when I got nothing back.
I kept telling myself every time a new one would appear that I wouldnt let you take over.
You were too strong.
So to you I say…like stay away.
like keep your intoxicating fumes and arms off.
I dont want to feel you hold me close and tell me everything will be alright.
I dont want to feel your passion.
I dont want to be with you for a lifetime.
I thought I wanted you but now… that want it gone.
So instead, Ill take the temporary happiness of Lust.
Ill take that temporary warmth from a quick smile, and the hollow darkness that follows from losing it.
Ill take the temporary rush from toying with you in anothers eyes.
Ill take the brief and fleeting over the permanent and long-lasting.
Sure taking that temporary may hurt, but I would rather crack slowly than shatter instantly.
Ill take it all, and bear the consequences.
Ill build a wall, no a fortress around my heart.
Ill turn it stone cold, and bitter, black and dead.
Ill do it all to keep them away and keep them from getting hurt.
Want to meet you again.
