You begin to question everyone and everything about your life.
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Updated 5 years ago,November 22, 2019
Depression is a black cloud.
Some days I can overcome it.
Lucas Pezeta
Other days theres no way through it.
And blurs my vision.
It stops me in my tracks.
Not allowing me to move.
Depression is that lonely feeling in the pit of your stomach.
You dont want to eat.
You dont want to socialize.
You dont want to do anything.
You dont even want to be.
Sleep becomes your favorite thing.
Its your happy place.
Because its then when you could disappear.
You dont have to think.
You dont have to worry.
Until you wake up, that is.
It takes over your life.
You become a shadow of the person you used to be.
And you dont know quite when it will take over.
Some days are better than others.
Some days are even good.
But then its back.
That uninvited guest to the party.
Depression makes me believe theres no use in trying.
It makes me think Im not good enough.
It makes me believe Im a failure.
That everything I do is wrong.
That nobody wants me in their life.
That nothing will ever be enough.
Depression makes me cry myself to sleep.
Sometimes it makes me sit in silence.
It makes me zone out.
It makes me disassociate from friends who want the best for me.
It makes me say no to plans, and not answer my phones for days.
Depression swallows you whole and makes you a shell of yourself.
It makes getting out of bed a great task.
It messes with your head.
You begin to question everyone and everything about your life.
Sometimes you dont know what other people are going through.
Maybe theyre being distant, maybe theyre being rude, or maybe theyre really going through something.
Ask how people are.
You just dont know.
Maybe you asking will help, just a little, for someone who is going through a tough time.
