Maybe I let you get away with so much, because I wanted to be with you that badly.
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Updated 8 years ago,May 25, 2017
You think Im gullible.
That I believed every word that came out of your mouth.
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That you were able to trick me without even trying.
I could tell when you were lying.
I could see right through you.
But I liked you, so I gave you the benefit of the doubt.
I believed that you would come around when you were ready.
I didnt want to push you away.
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I didnt want to scare you off.
I wanted you to like me, so I let you get away with murder.
I let you cancel plans with me.
I let you ignore my texts.
I let you walk out of my life for a week and then walk right back in.
I acted like all of the shitty things you did to me didnt bother me.
Like I was perfectly fine with being treated like crap.
But now I know that youre not the only one who made a mistake.
I never should have accepted your poor treatment.
I shouldnt have let you get away with so much.
Because it would have been better to lose you and keep my dignity than to have the opposite happen.
In the future, Im not going to let anyone else treat me the way that you did.
I dont care if I lose someone by being myself.
By trying to be involved in their life.
In my mind, theres nothing wrong with wanting answers.
So why do I keep holding myself back?
I know what I deserve and Im not going to settle for less.
After all, Im not looking for a fling.
Im not interested in finding someone who only wants me sometimes, who isnt ready to fully commit.
Im ready for the real deal.
And Im not going to let anyone else get away with treating me like shit.
