Even If I Knew How Things Were Going To End Between Us, I Would Still Choose You

I will always be so glad that I took a chance on you.

Maybe if I would have just been honest, things wouldnt have gotten so messy.

Maybe if I would have just told you sooner, I wouldnt have to move on.

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Maybe everything would be different.

Or maybe it would all be exactly the same.

You still would have gotten on that plane.

You still would have met that girl.

Maybe I just need to accept the fact that sometimes who and what we want changes.

Or maybe one day, you look into their eyes and you just know.

Maybe it is better not to know why you were no longer enough.

Or that you were never enough in the first place.

Maybe I am just another moment in time that will one day be forgotten.

Maybe I never should have known the truth.

Or maybe I should have just accepted the fact that the truth was always there between us.

We both knew from the beginning that what we had would have to end.

We had already gotten our second chance.

I dont know why I am still sitting here so hopeful for the third.

We both knew that what we had was different.

We both decided that what we had was worth the pain of knowing it could never be permanent.

We both took a chance, and we both got hurt.

And still, I think that it was worth it.

Even if I knew how things were going to end between us, I would still choose you.

And that I would have to live with that choice forever.

That is what you meant to me.

You taught me both the beauty and the pain of living in the moment.

You showed me just how beautiful the world could be if you just opened up to it.

You made me feel loved in a way that I had never experienced before.

With you, I felt beautiful.

With you, I did not have to question if you cared because I always knew that you did.

I will never forget the way we looked at each other underneath the stairs at the train station.

I knew that I was watching the beginning of the end.

And there was nothing I could do to stop it.

I knew that I would never be able to be your home.

I wanted so badly for things to end well this time.

I had naively assumed that we would stay friends and that things between us would remain the same.

Life will never be all good or all bad.

Changes will come into your life, whether or not you are ready or willing to receive them.

I will always be so glad that I took a chance on you.

I dont know what you are doing now, but I hope that you are happy.

I hope you are fulfilled and doing all of the things that you have always wanted to do.

I hope that you didnt lose your passion for music and the arts.

I hope you get to travel to all of the places you still want to see.

And I hope that one day, someone loves you as deeply and as wholly as you deserve.

(I know that this is what we both deserve.)