And though we didnt last, what he had still matters.

It still changed my life.

You still changed my life.

What It Feels Like To Be In Love When You Don’t Believe You Are Worth Loving

Jesse Herzog

I want to thank you for everything, even though we werent right for each other.

We were temporary from the day you walked into my life.

I still felt as though my whole world was caving in.

My thoughts were still with you.

I was still stuck on you.

Even though I knew we werent right, I still wasnt ready to let go.

I didnt want to give up the possibilities that I thought we still had.

And most of all, I didnt want to let go of the happiness you brought me.

I couldnt imagine my life feeling so good without you in it.

I couldnt think logically when butterflies filled my stomach and fire lit up my heart.

I couldnt listen to the facts or the logic because I didnt want to.

I didnt want to face the truth.

I didnt want the to believe it.

I didnt want to say goodbye to all of the goodness you brought into my life..

I thought that if it felt this good, it was right; it had to be right.

But I didnt think about how it couldve been better.

I didnt think that maybe if I said goodbye to something good, I would find something better.

I didnt realize that there was something missing; something so crucial, so essential.

You see, I learned that the truth is, its not enough to be with someone you love.

Its not enough to simply be in love.

When its real love, you wont just fall for that person.

You will also fall in love with yourself.

You will fall in love with who that person helps you to be and to become.

They still might not be permanent.

But you know what?

Maybe all of the little love stories are stepping stones into falling more in love with who you are.

Maybe they are taking you to lasting happiness.

I didnt become closer to myself when I was with you.

And even though we were temporary, you still meant the world to me.

I was still crazy about you.

I still remember your intensity and your strength, your excitement and your energy.

I still miss all of those moments.

I still remember every little thing.

And though we didnt last, what he had still matters.

It still changed my life.

I have to be with someone who makes me feel lighter, and more free.

I need to be with someone who challenges me to accept myself, just as I am.