I call myself a giver to make up for the fact I am a pushover.
I say chasing you is romantic so I dont have to admit to being stuck inside a one-sided relationship.
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Updated 6 years ago,December 7, 2018
My heart is not bothered by common sense.
God & Man
It does not listen to reason.
Iknowhow much better I deserve.
Iknowit is time to stop fighting for our relationship.
But that does not make my decision any easier.
I see what I have been putting myself through.
I call myself a giver to make up for the fact I am a pushover.
I say chasing you is romantic so I dont have to admit to being stuck inside a one-sided relationship.
I rationalize my behavior because I am resistant to change.
I dont want to find someone new.
I should be blocking your number by now.
I should be burning your photographs by now.
I should be warning my friends to stay far away from you.
But that is not the case.
My heart is stubbornly stuck in love with you.
I cannot get you out of my system.
I feel like the usual rules do not apply.
After all, we have history no one else can understand.
We are in the middle of a legendary love story.
The truth is uncomfortable.
The truth is, no, we do not belong together.
I let my optimism get the best of me.
But it is never the last time.
I am never finished with you.
But maybe now I am.
I cannot keep running back to you.
I cannot continue granting you permission to break my heart in brand-new ways.
Relationships are not supposed to leave me crying tears into a wine bottle.
Arguments are not supposed to leave my throat scratched from screaming.
Second chances are not supposed to leave me vulnerable to another heartbreak.
You are not good enough for me.
I have always known that and now it is time for me to act on that.
