I’m tired of this fakery routine of modern dating.
False intimacy is when a guy claims to like me yet all he does is talk about himself.
False intimacy is when I tell someone I like them but really I just feel extremely shit about myself.
cottonbro
False intimacy is when I cant let go of someone merely because of my low self-esteem and past hung-ups.
Im tired of this fakery routine of modern dating.
Im tired of mind games Oh, I understand them.
The only problem is that they work on the wrong men and they sustain the wrong situations.
At least not the pop in of men I would respect and adore anyway.
Not the jot down of relationships that I would want to be in.
My negative experience is nothing but a true reflection of my own emotional unavailability and unbalanced inner state.
I was full of fear Sometimes I didnt even know fear of what, and why.
But Im not that girl I used to be anymore.
Im not faking it anymore.
I want to be real and I want something real on my level.
I want to treat myself well and do myself good.
I dont just want a functional relationship.
I want a strong connection thats based on authenticity, vulnerability, and genuineness.
I want to like a man for who he really is.
I want my liking to have weight because its based on real value.
I want to be fully me free and crazy and wild and daring.
I want something that lasts.
I want long conversations and feeling close and being soulfully naked.
I want to be patient enough to slowly unwrap the layers around another heart.
I want someone who wants me the same way, deeply.
I want someone who cares about these words, whos naturally enticed by this content.
And if I get hurt, I want to be hurt for real.
So today I say goodbye to false intimacy.
No more forcing relationships to meet preset expectations out of anxiety.
Im daring to be me.
Im ready for real intimacy.
Come at me, life.
