For now, I want you to know that I believe in you.
I wish I could help you to see the rays of light shining through the overbearing thunder clouds.
I wish I could place the twinkle back into your sad, tired eyes.
Paola Chaaya
I wish I could help you to feel grounded again.
I wish I could tell you how lovely you are, and how worthy you are of healing.
And I wish I could help you to return home again, but this time, home to yourself.
And above all, I wish I could make life be good to you again.
If I could heal you, I would do so in a heartbeat.
I would wrap you up in love and kindness, like a blanket protecting you from the cold air.
The view you have almost lost sight of.
The view that you never expected to see.
If I could, I would let your burdens be my burdens.
I would carry them for you and save you from some of the weight of the world.
But no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, I cannot save you.
I cannot magically heal you.
As much as I wish I could, I cannot carry the load for you.
Because the truth is, only it’s possible for you to save yourself.
Only you’re able to fight this battle.
And I know its scary to hear this.
I know you dont feel like you might do this.
I know you feel isolated and alone and like nothing will ever get better.
But c’mon dont be afraid.
You are not alone in this.
You are never alone.
I cannot heal you, but I can stand by your side as you heal yourself.
I can be your biggest supporter.
I can believe in you with all of my heart.
I believe in you with every fiber of my being.
And I am going to shower you with hope and care.
Im going to keep believing in you even when you dont believe in yourself.
And as I stand by you, Im going to remind you of how far you have come.
Im going to remind you of all of the leaps and bounds you have already made.
Just getting out of bed in the morning, just facing the day.
Just showing up to work.
Or taking a mental health day and spending the entire day watching Netflix reruns.
You already have the strength within you to work your way through all of this pain.
I know you may not see it, but you are carrying your load with such grace.
You are carrying your pain with such beauty and such resilience.
And this grace, this beauty, these are signs of unbreakable strength.
You continue to persevere, even when you feel broken and hurt.
You continue to climb the mountain, even when you cant see the peak.
You continue to survive even when you dont feel like yourself.
You continue to wake up each day even when you feel miserable and hurt by the world.
Your bravery and tenacity are signs that you are going to get better all on your own.
And one day soon, something will change inside of you.
A light will switch ona faint little light that is barely visible.
And this gentle light is hope.
This light is a new beginning.
You see, this light is a sign that you are starting to believe in something again.
This is you beginning to feel better.
And over time, the light will become brighter.
You will still have nights of tossing and turning.
You may still have nervous breakdowns in your car.
You may still feel fearful of life.
But you will begin to feel a little less broken and a little more whole again.
The weight you have been carrying for all this time will lessen.
You wont cry quite as much.
You wont break down quite as much.
And you wont feel quite as hopeless.
You will begin to have hope that healing is possible.
You will begin to have hope that maybe one day facing the world wont be so daunting.
You will begin to have hope that you might actually make it to the top of the mountain.
And this is all you need.
Just a small ray of light.
A small seed of hope.
Because this light is a new beginning.
This is the new beginning of your life.
A life that is still waiting for you.
A life that still has the possibility of being good.
So for now, I want you to know that I believe in you.
I have hope for you.
