Ive decided to stop questioning everything and start listening to you, God.
In other words, give my mind (unconscious) permission to destroy situations before they even happen.
In other words, allow my days to be ruined by hypothetical thoughts that arent even halfway realistic.
@serge
My mind drives me crazy sometimes.
And honestly, when I get like this, I wish I could shut all my thoughts off.
I wish I could stop wondering about the next steps before I even have my shoes on.
I wish I could stop imagining an ending before theres even a beginning.
Because instead of focusing on my blessings, Im too busy worrying if the next adventure will pan out.
And in all honesty, it stresses me the hell out.
@serge
Thats why Ive decided to just stop.
To stop trying to make things happen.
To stop anticipating peoples movements, or trying to synchronize my feelings to the beat of someone elses heart.
See, the thing is, I forget you already have a plan.
I forget you already know whats happening in my life and how the ending is going to be.
I forget youre watching over me, guiding my steps as I choose which path.
I forget that as your daughter, thats all I have to dolean in and let go.
I spend so much time fighting you.
That I forget youre here with me, getting me through each moment.
And I dont have to fear.
Theres no reason for doubt to cloud my mind because youre not leaving my side.
And I need to quiet my crazy mind and listen.
Im letting you be the one who takes away my worries and carves me a path to follow.
Because I know when I listen and walk in your way, Ill be just fine.
Im going to quiet my mind and leave room for your thoughts to flood over me.
Im going to stop questioning and start listening to you.
