Help me to see beyond face value, beyond my attraction, beyond the entanglings of my heart.
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Updated 8 years ago,August 6, 2017
God, my mind is spinning.
And Ive felt this, most of all, in my relationships.
Alan Labisch
Not knowing when Ive reached the final straw.
Youve blessed me with the ability to love and Iwantto love.
But how am I supposed to know when enoughs enough?
How do I know you are here and that falling for this person is the right choice?
We wont be given the answers in the way we expect.
Thats the risk we take in love, isnt it?
Alan Labisch
But that doesnt mean you arent present, God.
That doesnt mean you arent here.
And so, I ask that you show me.
Show me a sliver of your plan.
Show me what you have for me.
Show me my next step.
I see future plans, future happiness.
And suddenly I dont feel so sure.
Suddenly I question whether this relationship is the one Im supposed to be in.
I cant expect perfection.
And yet, I cant settle for a love that isnt right, a love that hurts.
But what about myself?
Is this what you want for me?
Is staying with this person the right choice?
Because Im loving them like you love them?
Because Im giving them what they need?
Because were fighting to stay together and to love better, and thats what relationships are all about?
Or is theresomeone betterout there for me?
Am I hurting myself trying to love someone who isnt in the place to love right now?
Should I stay, or go?
In this moment of confusion, like let me hear you.
hey show me the ways you are guiding me, loving me, and standing beside me.
Show me the ways to love like you, to be humble and selfless and forgiving and kind.
Show me how to care for someone outside myself, without worrying about whats happening to me.
God, put aside my selfishness and help me see what youve placed in front of me.
Help me to see whether this persons intentions are sincere, or whether theyre only looking out for themselves.
Show me that I dont have to keep a checklist, a tally of all the rights and wrongs.
Give my heart peace and resilience.
Give me quiet moments to turn to you in prayer.
God, give me wisdom.
The wisdom to discern whether this relationship is right.
The wisdom to see this person for who they are.
Speak truth to my heart and knowledge to my mind.
Show me whether I should stay or leave.
And help me to be led by your word, not solely the beating of my heart.
