I didnt want to leave.
I just wanted to freeze that moment.
Because despite everything I still sat there so comfortably next to you.
God & Man
Like there wasnt anyone in the world who knew me better.
Your touch was soft and kind and with that my walls came crumbling down.
I let you in so carelessly and so easily.
God & Man
I didnt fear to trust you as much as I did.
You were my rock.
Everything and every thought that began to consume me more and more.
Suddenly you were stuck in my head but I didnt mind it.
With every goodbye, I wondered if there would be another hello.
And Id hug you a little tighter not being the one to pull away.
But then it just hit me.
I knew the moment I walked out of those doors it was over.
And I looked back as you told a joke that made me laugh.
God, you made me laugh more than anyone even knew how.
But with that laughter came tears I knew I didnt deserve.
Because it wasnt all good, all the time.
Loving you came with pain and I knew love wasnt supposed to hurt that much.
There was a shift in us and I think we both knew without words where this was going.
I kept putting my faith in you only to be let down.
And I know it hurt you too not being what I needed.
But it didnt hurt enough for you to change or to meet me half way.
I was left always looking at the past envious of it.
And I didnt want to let go but I had to for my own sake and sanity.
But the hardest part about moving on isnt that final goodbye, its everything after that.
Its hearing that song on the radio and holding back tears.
Its just knowing there is someone out there who just has all this information about you.
Someone who knows you to the core of who you are and they arent in your life anymore.
Its the pain of missing someone and not being able to tell them.
Its the pain of someone asking, how are they and you dont know the answer.
Its the pain of becoming strangers to someone you knew so well.
Its watching some elses life moving on when you used to be right there with them.
They forever hold a piece of your heart as you have theirs too.
