2.its too bad you missed the sunset.
i had never glowed for anyone like that.
3.there were constellations pulsing in my midnight sky i never wanted anyone but you to hold my hand under.
Nesrin Danan
now youre just someone else who left me hurt and undiscovered.
4.i wanted to be cartographer of your soul and body.
blame them both if i cannot see you yet; i am still transfixed.
i swear i am trying not to be.
5.i have never tried this hard at letting go.
6.i have a high threshold for pain, i dont understand why it hurts like this.
youve no idea of the many ways you lulled me to sleep.
id wake up to whispers in your native tongue coming from your lips.
i couldve sworn it all meant something.
10.for you, i would have learned a third language.
i would have used it with your mother.
i would have held that piece of you in me.
11.i fucked him only because i thought he could lick your name from my lips.
when it was over, in the dark, i cried silently.
i whispered your name to myself and clung to it like a safety blanket.
13.you made me feel less alone.
14.i still want to sleep in your bed.
i dont know what that means.
15.i wasnt looking for you.
i swear i didnt mean to love you.
you were good in ways i had never known.
16.what you did to me with her, its not who i thought you were.
some days, i hate you so much for it.
you dont do that to someone you have respect and care for.
17.you became one of my best friends, but my heart was never safe with you.
i want to say im sure of it, but id be wrong.
you let me go because you knew i didnt just want to be appreciated, but loved.
19.when i see you, know its because i no longer feel anything at all.
20.part of me knows this will be a lie.
