My heart begins to beat again, only faster to make up for the pause.
Its a comfort Ive never known that I cant seem to fully understand.
So much about us doesnt work.
God & Man
It hasnt worked before, it doesnt work now, and its likely going to stay that way.
But still, when our eyes lock, everything else disappears.
He looks into my eyes, and my heart stops for just a moment.
The butterflies and other insects roam around inside my stomach.
My heart begins to beat again, only faster to make up for the pause.
His irrationality is contagious as I find myself was drawn to every part of him thats good.
I ask questions even if answers have been whats hurt me in the past.
I keep asking wanting to dive deeper into his mind knowing it may be an unsafe territory.
I dont think of a future with us as I obsess over our past and present.
I keep on giving him attention because I know Ill get the same in return.
I love his flaws because I love him.
I love him even if he doesnt love me back.
I love him even if he does.
It makes sense that it doesnt make sense.
He takes me to a place where my daily worries disintegrate beneath me, and unfamiliar excitement appears.
Hes wrong in every way, but I love every moment we get together.
Hes a bad habit that I cant seem to break and dont seem to want to break.
I cant help but love him, even if I know he doesnt belong in my life.
He traveled with me to both ends of the spectrum, and the history will always be there.
Hating him hurts me while loving him hurts me too.
So Im screwed either way and leave it to time to steer me in the right direction.
Hes all wrong for me, but I love him anyway.
