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Updated 4 years ago,March 20, 2021
The wind is heavy and the rain is pouring.
You walk home after asking the air for some salvation.
It betrays you and leaves you with nothing but a heavier chest.
Andrik Langfield
Your breath is out of sync and you are trying so desperately to hold the tears from falling.
How can I keep living like this?
you think to yourself.
Many times in our life, we fall into pits of darkness.
we say, confronted by a plethora of worries and of seemingly enormous personal issues.
And when we reach this point, our actions are crucial.
The truth is that there is no immediate answer to What now?
or How can I keep living like this?
but there is one to Why?
Here is where we find the answer to the-all-intimidating Why?
The question How can I keep living like this?
And again, the question is not How?
but rather Why should I?
Because life is not in pursuit of the end.
You do not travel the world, focusing on the last flight home.
It is not one constant life from birth till death; it is a consecutive string of sub-lives.
In hindsight, it doesnt feel like something you would do; it doesnt feel likeyou.
Thats because it isnt.
It is a version of who you areor at least who you werethat grew and created your present self.
In this is the excitement of life giving new impetus to the feeling of hope.
Because then the question of How can I keep living like this?
becomes somewhat blurred and irrelevant.
Yes, it feels like your emotions are repetitive.
Yes, it feels like every time you start to feel better, you fall apart.
Yes, it feels like life is too long and too exhausting to ever possibly survive the full stretch.
But you forget that you are more than your present self.
You are strong, you were strong before, and you will be stronger still.
You will feel more pain and more love.
You will feel more confusion and more clarity.
You realize that heartbreaks and moments of great uncertainty were just as exceptional as those of notable joy.
