I wonder what will come from todays appointment with Dr. August.
I was young when I first started getting little boils, around 8 years old.
The first 3-4 years of my HS journey were straightforward and easy, with only mild symptoms.
As time progressed, the condition started to really take hold of my body.
I also started taking antibiotics.
At 15-16 years of age, I began medication which, unfortunately, didnt help.
It was at this stage in my life where my anxiety was through the roof.
Yes, I obviously had to make adjustments; however, I still made the most of everything.
If there was a party, I was there.
If there was a night out, I was there.
If there was a social event at work, I was definitely there.
If my friends where going on holiday, I would join them.
Do I think I have achieved that yet?
Living with HS is hard
The vicious cycle is endless.
HS is one of the most complicated diseases in dermatology.
We know that weight doesnt help with this disease, as it is an inflammatory condition.
(When we have extra weight, the body struggles to reduce inflammation.)
Imagine trying to go to the gym and feeling boils growing as soon as youve done the simplest exercise.
Subconsciously, I have kept myself bigger to keep people away.
My scars are ugly, I dont have a normal body.
I emotionally eat, happy or sad.
My scars affect me more than I think they do.
It does bother me when people judge me, I am only human.
I have trust issues, I am more insecure than anyone would believe.
A man has to show me 100% trust and empathy, then I can show my vulnerable side.
To anyone who is reading this, whether you suffer with HS or any other condition, be brave.
Always remain as positive as possible, we get back what we give out.
You are so much stronger than you think you are.
Do not let anything break your spirit.
You are a fighter.
Take on the world.
