Feeling this way, though, how can you be just friends?
When all you want to do is reach out and hold their hand?
You enjoy their company.

Christopher Campbell
You admire their personality,their quirks and charms.
All it takes is finding them a bit attractive to wonder if you guys could be something more.
When you hang out with your group of friends, you notice howkindthey are to everyone.
So one day you work up the nerve and decide to give it a try.
You ask them to hang out alone.
Youre both unsure of the others feelings.
Do they even realize it was a date?
Maybe they just thought you were grabbing a casual brunch.
The second date comes and its more obvious whats going on; you explore if theres a connection.
They unexpectedly kiss you in the elevatora moment alone seized in the perfect way.
Maybe its three dates.
Maybe its a month.
But eventually, you realize that for whatever reason, its not going to work.
Youre just not connecting on that next level.
So you go back to being just friends.
But you saw adifferent sideto them.
You hung out with the part of them thats more vulnerable.
The part that shows you more attention.
The part that was interested in getting to know the deeper side of you.
That part where their lips touched yours.
Their hands felt your body.
That side that was hidden away while you dated.
Maybe they hid that side out of the awkward feelings that come with the first few dates.
Maybe they were nervous.
Maybe you made them nervous.
Either way, you see their goofy side again.
The part that made you want to venture to be more than friends in the first place.
But you gave it a try.
You made the decision not to take it further.
To end things before the friendship was no longer salvageable.
Feeling this way, though, how can you be just friends?
When all you want to do is reach out and hold their hand?
When you have to hold yourself back from cuddling up with them on the couch?
Maybe this is one of those youve made your bed now you lie in it scenarios.
You made a decision.
Theyre even dating someone new.
And what if you did and things didnt work out again?
Then youd hurt themagain.
You cant do that to them.
Theyre such a good person.They dont deserve that.
So you sit there and bite your tongue.
Act casually friendly like you always have with each other.
Trying to act like the desires youre suppressing dont exist, because youre just friends now.
After all,you chose this.